Flashback

Flashback..Flashback..and Flashback..

I wish it's only me..I wish that you won't appear in my memories..everytime our memories appear..I don't know should I smile or cry..laying on my bed alone..hugging my booster tightly thinking the way you hug me..yes..I do miss your hugs..you hugged me tightly through the night eventhough I had fever..maybe you don't even know that everytime you hold my hand or hugged me..it's like my heart skipped a beat..I miss that feeling..I miss the expression you made when you 'manja' with me..now..everything I do, there will be a shadow of you around me..when I clean my ears,when I laying on the bed you bought,when I hiding myself in the blanket,when I cook in the kitchen and etc..why is it you're the one who appear in my life? Why you made me love you? I really wish all of these never happen in my life before..because I still miss you eventhough I don't want to..

I hate it..I hate myself!

Shine A Light♥

Mcfly's new song is finally out! Danny looks hawt!My favourite British's band!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Tell me are you feeling strong
Strong enough to love someone
And make it through the hardest storm
And bad weather

Will you pull me from the flames
Hold me till I feel no pain
And give me shelter from the rain
For ever

Where can I find her
She took the light and left me in the dark, eh
She left me with a broken heart, eh
Now I'm on my own
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her

Tell me can you hear my voice
Loud and clear above the noise
Even if I had the choice
I would not give up

I can not find her
Mcfly Shine A Light lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/mcfly-shine-a-light-lyrics.html

She took the light and left me in the dark, eh
She left me with a broken heart, eh
Now I'm on my own
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her

Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her
She took the light and left me in the dark, eh
She left me with a broken heart, eh
Now I'm on my own
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh, eh)
Shine a light on her (eh, eh)
If anybody sees her

原來你什麼都不想要

我知道這樣不好
也知道你的愛只能那麼少
我只有不停的要

要到你想逃

淚濕的枕頭晒乾就好
眼淚在你的心裡只是無理取鬧
以為在你身後　

是我一輩子的驕傲
原來你什麼都不想要

我不要你的呵護　

你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久愛我一遍
就算虛榮也好　

貪心也好
哪個女人對愛不自私　

不奢望

我不要你的承諾

　不要你的永遠
只要你真真切切愛我一遍
就算虛榮也好　

貪心也好
最怕你把沉默　

當做對我的回答

原來你什麼都不想要

I'm not DUMB..YOU DUMBASS!!

17th Nov

Went to Sunway..and reminded me of memories..miss it so much..

I'm glad you find me..

~miss ya~

Tired of you!

My mum called me just now..while we talked like normal..but once she said this,"Why you don't want to study Mable's that course?" And again..again..I fed up! You think I'm what? Testing machine? I failed..so? You don't even have the trust on your own daughter..how am I suppose to do well?! If this course cheap then study this..that course cheap then study that.. Better don't study!! I don't want to give up half of the course..This is the path I choose myself..and you agreed..but now? WTF! Is not that I wanna be disrespectful..but mum! I'm not a toy! And you want me to continue study then just let me be..Nurse is what I wanna do..so stop force me to do other stuff again! You know how fed up I am? You scold sis that she didn't continue her study..now I am continuing mine..so don't force me! I just wanted to study happily..stop giving me pressure.. If you want me to quit and work..sorry..my life isn't gonna go anywhere by this..and by that time..I don't think I can afford to take care of you..I'm planning my future..if I failed, just let me be..I rather I failed in my choice than failed in yours..

everyone believe in me..except you..what you want from me?

I'm getting tired with all this!

11th Nov

Finally moved to our new house..Although the room seems a little bit small but it still manage to fit us in..The owner of this house seems nice..everything was ready for us..he even helped us to clean the fan..how sweet~haha! Hope there will no any problem in our new house..

Confused! How? Should I? Or should not? I want to go Johor with you guys..but but~I really bo money liao!! So sorry! If my mum really let..I will fly there to meet you all! Haha! See how things go..=)

Hmm..everytime I move to new house..I don't know why I will think of you..while I know I shouldn't..maybe this became one of my habit..your presence..your smell..and your every touch~ I played a game called Find Out Your Friends Secret in Facebook..I typed your name..and the result is "Lucas Fazzwan loves you a lot"..how I wish this was true..Really miss this words from you..the three little words as my goodnight..the three little words that makes my heart flutters.. but I know it's not gonna happen..

Oh yeah..I FAILED!

Thanks bro

After 2 hours chatting and hearing his story..I really glad that I have him as my brother..Always give me good advices..the one who will always support me and by my side..you really teach me a lot of thing..sorry because of me..you've been through so many things..although we're always fight when we're small..but you're still love me as your little sister..哥哥..我爱你!

~thank you for letting me know how precious is my family~

7th Nov

Holding my tears..no matter what..I can't cry..

Eating Baskin Robbin..Walking around in the mall without direction..

Found out that..I'm not as strong as I think..

At Last

Woohoo~at last the test is over..! I had soo much fun yesterday with my classmates! Redbox in pavillion..Snowflakes~Sungai Wang shopping! Couldn't tell how happy I am..Let's see some pictures of my beloved classmates! Love toilet..xD

Gordon (who always thought he has a nice body..XD)

Sai Kit (love to sing very bery much)

Ying Hao (speechless..xD)

Ah Gkee (SN11G's comedian)

Xiao Wen (big mosquito)

Xiao Mong (eat partner)

Yee Wen (big eater but won't fat..><)

~SN11G~

Screwed

Nervously standing outside the college hall waiting the door to open..everyone having last discussion to refresh our mind..the door finally open..We went into the war destination..The papers are on the table waiting for us...When I flipped through the papers, WTF! 7 subjective and 30 objective?! Are you serious?! And we need to finish it in 1 1/2 hours?! OMFG! Can't waste too much time..quickly grabbed my pen and start doing it..wasted 45 minutes on my objectives..left 45 minutes more to do my subjective..God~First question..OMG! Second question..SHIT! Third ques..I gave up!! T.T Not even have the time to finish half of the paper..at least give me some time to write crap on the paper! Time's up! That's it Wong An Gel..You did your best to save it..but that's the end..I'm sorry..

I think 80% or maybe 99% that my scholarship gonna fly away from me..I'm sorry mummy~sorry my family~I did my best..hope you all will forgive me..I will do my best in AS and A2 exam! I will be like nerd..holding my books..staying in the library and study! I won't let you all disappointed on me anymore..!

but how am I gonna survive? Money is the main problem of everything..Should I just sell myself? Hmm~

Biology tomorrow..no more mood to continue study..just can't wait this test ends!

~wish someone can hug me tightly now~