29th May

Today went shopping with Sok Yee and Shu Min..we went to Sg Wang..after that,we went to Times Square..can't believe Shu Min shopped more than us..hahaha!! Well, bought 2 dress and a pair of shoes..but 1 of the dress got some stained on it!!! Damn unlucky!! TT and now Shu Min kept saying she's happy because she bought clothes..==" Kinda regret didn't buy the other dress~

Tomorrow is 100th day..he said wanna make it 101th day..and trough web cam..100th or 101th is not important if it's without you by my side..anyway, I didn't aspect much..so that my disappointment won't too high..LOL! Argh~very miss him..really wish he'll by my side now..

100th or 101th...I STILL LOVE YOU~

Hate this feeling

Why? Why I always have this feeling? I don't know why I suddenly will feel sad..I don't like this feeling..but this feeling is over controlling me..I don't even know why I'm sad for..Sometimes will really sad till cry..while I don't even know why I cried..hate this feeling in me..

I miss him..i know although it's just few hours..but my heart is uncontrollable now..I don't even know what is my feeling..happy? sad? I make myself don't always miss him because he gonna go to study soon..But everytime think bout him will make me cry..Really hope he'll stay in kl..it's just a hope..not a must..maybe this will make me stronger..really hate goodbye!!

I REALLY MISS YOU

26th May

~I'll miss this day~

~To be love by you is the happiest thing in my life~

2AM

It's 2am now..I don't know why I'm still awake..I'm having class tomorrow morning at 9am..but I can't sleep..Sok Yee and Shu Min are sleeping like pigs..only me who is still awake..><

I don't even know what is in my mind now..miss? homesick? nope~just suddenly very miss my niece and my sis..don't know why I miss her so much..After she got married, I met her once a week..since I live in KL now..my memories when she still unmarried suddenly popped out in my mind..I miss sleeping with her..miss when she kacau me when I'm very sleepy..miss pillow talk with her..She's the one who I grew up with..we seldom fight..we shared laughs and tears together..I miss those moments..~

Yesterday night..I got insomnia..thanks to the teh tarik~I listened to song so that I can fell asleep..but the more I listen,the more I miss my dad..I miss my dad's moustache~the way he snuggle me..the way he 'tham' me..the moments we cooked together..miss the moments we always went to pasar together..miss sing songs in the car with him..miss the way he manja me..sad that the one who I love the most in my family had gone forever..he won't come back to scold me..cold war with me..cook with me..sing with me..It's almost 3 years without him by my side..Sometimes I already get use to it..but I'll miss him in my heart everyday..especially when I saw other people hold hands with their dads..chat happily with their dads..it made me envy.. very envy..now,I didn't say or shout "爸爸!" this words..but this words will remain in my heart forever..

Appreciate the one you have now before you regret..Don't wait cause the time won't wait for you..

I MISS ANNIE

~I LOVE DADDY~