29/6

This few days I kinda felt annoyed by my friend..She kept saying that I'm lazy..well,although I am..but she isn't hardworking also! I just found out that she seldom study at home..but when she said about me..she feels like she's very hardworking and bla bla bla..when I studied at Yam Yam Park just now,she said,"Why you want study? Don't study larh~" I'm like WTH..I study none of your business la~aduii! Seriously,if I can turn back time..I rather not mix with her..she's not weird like Sok Yee's friend..but when she talks,her words macam ada maksud tersirat~please..if you want to say something..just say it out bravely! Sad when talking bout her..haiz..

Another news is Jia Iaw gonna move in this Sunday..hope everything will works up well..get along well..and hope she will fit in into this room well..our room is kinda messy..haha! Since after holiday,we all just lazy to clean up our room..and we don't have time for that now..

TEST is coming soon..why I feel lazy?? :( Need to study!! But still feel lazy..I for already revised for Chemistry and Biology chapter 1~still got a lot to go!! TT

Hmm..he went to matrix in Gambang! Hope he will come KL on Saturdays and Sundays..well, not every weekend..Wanna see him so bad~almost 2 weeks already..miss him! Hope he'll do well and have fun there!

26/6

I thought everything will turn out right this morning..but ONE message just turn everything upside down..well..not everything..

I dunno why I want to put so high hope on it..maybe I'm eager to see him..more than he wanna see me..hmm.,just got a bit disappointed..from last Saturday..I thought I will see him..till this Saturday..I understand that he's been busy..I really do..It's not that I'm not satisfied or sad..It's just like you will expect that thing will happen..at last it didn't..I'm not sad..just disappointed..

Luckily, I got 2 lovely room mates..we went shopping for almost 4 hours..bought some clothes today..my feet are tired..T.T the most annoying thing that happened is the stupid bus..that's the worst bus ride ever! That fat ass woman so no manner! She just pushed everyone~ ==" I'm like "excuse me~?"

Hmm..It's fun but the same time..it's quite hmm..whatever..

Now I realised

Been thinking about a lot of things..my love life,my future and my career..

Yesterday during my Biology Tutorial class, my tutorial teacher told us a story whereby at last you need to choose your choice which will lead you to your future's aim..maybe it's true maybe it's not.. well, my result was I'm more to my love life..I think it's true..for me..but I still dunno what will happen in the future..maybe something happen and make everything change..

What will happen to my love life? Seriously, I just want to have a simple life..I don't want my husband is a millionaire or billionaire..although I love money..but what if my husband spend more time on how to make billions of money than taking care of his own family? Hmm...

Dunwan talk to much bout love life..xD

Nurse..really is the career I aim for? Well..90% yes..because that's the job which I can find job easily and the income is not bad..but I really scared I can't go through this A Level..I can't say it's hard or easy..what if I flung the exams..? I think I won't..sometimes,I will feel burden.. because my family were putting high hopes on me..I'm a human too..sometimes I just feel tired of studying or looking at those notes..actually I'm a very lazy person..obviously~I just dunno why I can get 8As in SPM..I didn't even studied properly..will it be better if I did less well in SPM? Maybe they won't put so high hopes on me? I just scared if one day I did not do well and let them disappointed..what will happen? Can't think more than that..~

Now I realised..life is damn hard..all those decision I make now will lead to my future..it's either good or bad..it's hard when I can't tell this to anyone..talk to my family? They will understand me? Will my mum will stop her nagging about..everything? Especially "Study first larh..pak to when oso can wan ma~" ==" it's 2010 now..talk to my friends? One word,"serious??" Talk to him? Nah~he's busy..don't want to annoy him..said about annoy this word..I'm kinda sad when people said I'm annoying..although I am..but I found out that..I'm not annoying in college..trying to change? I don't know..a lot of people said I need to change..seriously,if I changed..you all will treat me like before? Is that the AnGel that you guys want?If you all think that's better for me, I'll change for your sake..

o.0 Suddenly write till this topic..just gonna stop here..tired..+ sleepy..

Back to college

Holiday ended~! Seriously,this morning don't feel like going to college..went for college for that 3 hours classes..my bed~I miss my bed in KL!

But the smell has gone..the smell of yours..miss your hugs so much!! Miss you shouts~when everyone ignores you~miss when you always kacau me~miss you always sings when everyone called you stop singing...miss you so much!

Don't feel like doing my homework..test is coming soon..don't feel like studying..gonna study last minute!!!

Nothing much happened for today~miss KL life with you...