30th

I shouldn't done that..it just makes my heart even more pain..

Never knew..I'm still left unwanted..

Should I say myself stupid or very stupid?

♥ note

1 整天打你、骂你、说你笨蛋；不让你抽烟的女生、要珍惜

2 喜欢吃棒棒糖的女生

3 你们接吻超过三分钟的女生

4 让你唱歌给她听的女生

5 对你发脾气、自己却哭了的女生

6 无论你提出多么过分的要求、她都会答应你的女生

7 这个你可能不知道，你睡觉时她总是喜欢默默的看着你。

8 表面上不在乎你，但你生病时她却着急的落泪。

9 你们在一起的时候，不让你乱花钱，总是第一个从口袋里拿钱付账帮你省钱的女生。

10 喜欢让你在她最伤心的时候、陪在身边的女生。

11 你们一天中打电话超过12个小时的，你最喜欢在电话中说她是猪、说她笨的女生。

12 你们两人在一起的时候，你总是叫她媳妇，叫她名字没超过三次的那个女生

This certainly reminds me of YOU♥

By your side

I'm tired.

There's no one that I can trust. This world is scary. Creepy. Coldness is all around me.

Daddy.

Why you bring me to this world and leave me alone here?

I'm tired to be strong. I'm tired to act nothing happen all the time.

I don't want to be a fool laughing and smiling when I don't need to.

Sometimes I just wanna keep my mouth shut and leave my mind blank.

When I think someone will understand me,I'm totally wrong.

Every time when I hear my friends talk about their dad.

My heart aches but I still put a smile on my face.

I always tell myself "I'm fine"

Love me for 15 years.

No matter how rebel I am, no matter how childish I am.

You always hug me.

Now I need a hug from you. Where are you?

I hate it when my friends purposely say something about my dad.

They always say "I'm sorry" and act like they accidently say it out.

Though I acted nothing but I'm not that stupid.

Friends? Not all friends can be trusted.

Lover? They'll leave you one day too.

Daddy.

One day..someday.. I'll accompany you.

Let's break up

The lips that said I love you

said break up too

my love now

it's nothing

even when I close my eyes

I still see you

even when I close my ears

our memory whispers

the happiness we shared together

Why do my tears dropping?

It's a path I cannot find

a path that disappears as soon as I walk

a path that blocks love

a path that leads to farewell

A phrase I forgot through pain and cry

a phrase that always hide behind love

Break Up

Results

It's finally here. My result. Well, it's expected. BYE scholarship~ =)

Hmm...ungraded..this seriously reminds me I need to study hard for AS.

Pray for me! =)

Drive! Drive! Drive!

Finally! I drove a car! LOL! The feeling of sitting on the driver seat, touching the steering, releasing the hand break, reversing the car, start the car, park the car etc. All these feeling, I can't believe it I felt it just now! Seriously, just now is so damn random. I randomly said I wanna drive the car. But actually I'd been curious about the feeling of driving a car as my mum don't really let me to drive her car because it's manual =.= Thanks to my brave friend, CC! Seriously, thank you for letting me to drive your mini car as I'm seriously really didn't have any experience in driving a car before. It's awesome! I'm not really scared but I'm actually more excited when I'm driving it. Can't help myself smiling when driving just now. LOL! I'm not very worry as the car is auto. The feeling of it is totally awesome~I never knew drive car can be so exciting and challenging! Love that feeling sooo muchhh! Today is definitely became one of my favourite day~My first time of driving a car on the road. I won't forget this day : 21st Dec! Seriously, I can't wait for my second round!!

this picture is just for illustration xD

PS : I'm actually driving illegally.. shh~

SUNFLOWER

found this view in SG Wanna Be's Sunflower mv..love it!♥

GLEE!

enjoyed listening to GLEE's Christmas songs. So, I downloaded the whole album of it. Seriously, GLEE is AWESOME!

few pictures from GLEE

these few days chased Korean dramas. I had left out my GLEE season 2!

~sad~

Lead me

time♥

coz we can't buy back the time

15th Dec

I don't know should I cry or smile..When I see your face,when I'm quietly stared at you, it reminds me of our memories..I wanna cry because I miss it..I wanna cry because our relationship is different now..When I see your silly face, when you talked something stupid..I smiled without reason..I smiled because the person is you..only YOU will make me feels this way..=)

My days

Mondays used to be boring

Tuesdays were getting dull

Wednesdays tended to be too long

Thursdays deceived me it was late

Fridays were confusing

Saturdays were lonesome

Sundays used to be difficult living only at the same scheme

This is how my weeks passed

Single = Single

what the fuck

damn

One word, "FUCK"! RM3469?! Thinking how to tell my mum about this..confusing..depressing..really feel like crying..but no point..really FUCK MY LIFE!

Dream

Frequently dreams about you these days..my teacher once said that when you dream something means you've been thinking about that something a lot..does this means I've been thinking about you a lot? Well..I think that's a yes..2 months plus..everything turned into habit..how can I forget? How can I let go? Dream just makes me worse..please give me a lovely dream..A dream that is not about HIM..

Kiss goodbye

I had a dream and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ...

you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and

said goodbye ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SOK YEE~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

Sok! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I'm sorry that I can't celebrate with you this year..I can't see you blow candles..I can't see you make your wishes..I'm sorry that I can't buy birthday cake for you.. I hope you can forgive me~=)

I'm sincerely wish that you will enjoy your birthday..Don't always think negatively..Everyone remember your birthday..for those who don't remember..forgive them because there's no point remembering them in your life..Be more happy! SMILE~~=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY again to my lovely roommate~ ♥

~make a wish~

I can't buy the real one..so tengok this picture larh~xD

♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥

1st December♥

Ah~it's 1st of December~am I gonna spend my day at home doing math? Someone! Date me to a special place~really hope I can spend my last month of holiday nicely and perfect..laying on my bed now..planning to do my math revision later..my housemate and his friend are playing dota i guess~=.= so bored~argh! someone! HELP!! I want spend my day happily~not stuck at home! argh~

~I still miss you~