30th July

I can't wait to go back! I miss everything there! Haha! At last I packed all my things to Nina's house..it's tiring but I think the guys are more tired than me..need to thanks to Sok Yee's mum's godson? LOL! He's a nice guy..too bad I'm not single..haha! just joking~now, I'm lying on my thin mattress at the living room..I can't sleep..maybe I slept too much this afternoon..but tomorrow I need to go college at 8am..T.T I can't go back to the room anymore..kinda feel sad though..there's so much memories there..but I hope that my new room can give me new memories too..well, I hope it will be happy memory~

Kinda happy that he called me..hah~I know he will seldom call me already..but I know everything will be fine..hearing Han Geng's new song now..I love this part of the lyric :

"如果没遇见你会怎样

是否能看见这片天空

你一直默默陪在我的身旁

教会我坚强

在下雨天我为你撑伞

记得那次我湿了右肩

把你沪在心跳的这一边"

Need to sleep now..good nite~

This Room

It's 12:36am now..we're just finish packed our things..the room seems so blank now..can't believe we'll move out from this room started from tomorrow..I'm happy to move to our new condo..because those crazy freaks stayed at the same floor with us..I can go there play whenever I feel lonely..but this room reminds me a lot of my memories with him..we play,we sleep,we talk,we shout,we sing, and did a lot of thing~well, memories are just memories..we cant find them back in our future life..kinda miss the time when you're around me..or I'm around you..haha! Besides that, Shu Min won't stay with me anymore~T.T I'll be very miss her..although sometimes she sounds like a mum..but she made us feel a lot of happiness and always do random stuff that made us laughed..Must visit me always o~don't miss me too much..! Hope you enjoy yourself at your new home!

~this Friday! Kuantan I'm coming!~

25th July

Yesterday night I'd been thinking..all those things that you said to me..seriously, I don't know that's a good thing or bad thing..It's good that nothing happen between us..the bad thing is now only I know who's the one you love deeply..It's keep playing in my mind..I don't know what will happen in the future..I'm kinda scared what if one day..one day she appears back in your life? Maybe there's nothing that we can really committed to..maybe there's really no forever.. If there is, please show me some miracle..I know life is not as simple as I think..

Preventing myself to get hurt..I won't put you as my priority anymore..I hope you know what I mean..My priority is my family..my mum,brother and sister and of course my beloved father..but you are still an important person in my life..a person who is irreplaceable..

Hope that everything will stay the same..although there's something that I will never forget..

~I will love you just like the way you love me~

Almost

I almost lose you..

I almost can't have you by my side..

I almost can't hold you..

I almost can't hug you..

I almost can't have you in my life..

I know I can't be the best for you..

I know I'm not the one..

I know I can't be the one..

But I really hope one day I can be the one..

until the day..

you must tell me because this really mean a lot to me..

Although words are hurt..

I can bear the pain..

because I wouldn't wanna lose you..

I don't have the strength to let go..

all the memories you had with me..

maybe it's not the best for you..

but it really means a lot for me..

I try my best for you..

You need to try my best for me too..

I don't know what else I can ask from you..

because you are too good to me too..

I will never let go..

until the day if you want me to..

Break record

Throughout my this whole life, this is the first time used RM2 in a day..and this continuous for 3 days..I ate bread every morning..bring bread to college for lunch..my dinner is maggi sometimes..and Sok Yee's homemade mee from Kuantan.. I decided to use as less as possible because of my room problem..I don't want to give more burden to my beloved mummy.. So basically, I used RM150 for this month..isn't it miracle? I cant believe I can use RM150 for one month..I'm kinda proud..haha! Having financial problem banyak susah..SO GOOD if I'm living in a rich family..stop dreaming angel!

I think because of my selfishness..I gave a lot of problem to a person..me and sok yee actually deicided to rent a room on the third floor..but yesterday I found better room! And I found out that it's located on the same floor with Jian Yang and those ma lat lou's condo! So, we decided to choose that room over the third floor room..we said sorry to her..I know she also will having difficulty to find people..but so sorry..I need to do that for my family..but I never knew KL people so childish..guess what she sms to us? "I'll curse you both from now on".. Omg! How many years old are you? I know we did wrong..but this is too childish dude~no eyes wan see already~xD

Well..this not really related..I just wanna say I miss him very much! Still wondering when can I see him~=( but it's ok..! I'll bear it till the end! ^^

~miss you~

Still can't believe it~XD

Delivery from love one

Seriously, I'm kinda surprise when I received the cake from Hau Hui..never knew he will did that this month..I need to thanks Hau Hui to purposely bring the cake for me..and thanks to my dumb dumb for giving me this surprise! It's already 5th month..I'm waiting for our half year~haha! And my birthday!! T.T Hope you'll by my side..anyway..enjoyed eating the cake! It will be my breakfast for this week..every morning will remember you! ^^

~loveyou~

20th

It's 20th of July..It's the day where we start our life together..I remember how we celebrated our 1st month,2nd and 3rd..although we can't celebrate our 4th and 5th month together..I believe we still remember every moment we spent together..no matter how far we are..no matter how long we've been apart..we still didn't forget about each other and still keep giving each other support.. Although there's a lot of thing happened between us, I'm glad that we learn to forgive, tolerate and trust each other everytime..because of our trust for each other..we still together until now..i hope this trust will never end so that we will stay together forever..I know it's too early to say that..haha! I hope everything that we've been through will bring us happy ending..I still remember how we struggle because of my family matter..but I really glad that I didn't give up on you..

"You are the best girl ever in my life that who could understand me more.."

~hope I will be the best girl in your life forever~

Never give up my love one!

HAPPY 5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY

~miss your hugs~

loveyousomuch

Regret

I regret for not taking care of my teeth when I was small..

I regret to eat a lot of sweets when I was small..

I regret to drink a lot of soft drinks when I was small..

but it's too late now..

For 18 years in my life..

Why? Why you now act like this?

I can feel the painfulness every second..every min and every hour!

Stupid tooth! I hate you!

I seriously need a dentist!

But no MONEY!!!

And the stupid ulcer!

Why you getting bigger and bigger?!

Get out from my mouth!

This is more suffering than flu..cough or sick!

Please~someone bring me go see dentist!!

See my lovely ulcer:

My beautiful tooth :

Wonderful weekend

Enjoyed my last weekend..we actually wanted to watch Eclipse at Times Square last Saturday..but there're too many people! The line is so damn long! At last,we didn't go to watch movie..we walked around and kept eat eat eat! We ate our lunch at the food court..ate potatoes at Ireland Potatoes ^^V and ate desert at Timeless Penang! But we still enjoy ourselves there..especially my dear is with me~hehe!Last weekend was perfect because of him! Miss him so much..we didn't see each other for more than 1 month already! Really happy and enjoy my time with him~

Miss you~

What a SHOCK!

These few days..I've been reading The Star newspaper..well, it's to improve my language and my knowledge about my country and the world..but what caught my attention is there are rape cases daily..and it's all below 18 years old!!

Did you guys read today newspaper? 11 years old girl raped by 6 guys! Can you imagine that?! It's gonna hurts if she's a virgin! Omg~and one of them is her former boyfriend..what's happening? o.0 I wonder what's the age of the former bf..11 too?? If 11, I think I can jump out from my window now..haha! Besides that, there's another news about raping case too..there're so many right?? Well, this guy is 29..and he raped his own gf who is only 16..she refused..so, he slapped and threaten her.. please la~if your gf tak mau..just stop it la! She's not a prostitute! She's your GF! God damn it!

There's another news..but it's not about raping la..but it's very interesting for me..Listen carefully~ 10 COUPLES CAUGHT NAKED DAILY AT TERENGGANU BEACH! Did you know that?? When I read the article's title, I found it interesting..can you imagine that? You're doing it and got caught..that will very embarrassing! It stated that they caught them doing it behind coconut trees,behind those big fat giant rocks, in the car and even freely on the BEACH! On the beach man! So much sand..so dirty! In the car can still say okla~but on the beach! The sand will be sticking on your whole body..what if the sand got stick in the virgina? Omg~I can't imagine that..please get a room la! Freely on the beach is bad..I mean in Malaysia..if in foreign country..I think that's a common thing..but it's not common in Malaysia dude! If you want do it..go other country! I wouldn't hope while I'm enjoying playing on the beach with my friends or my boyfriend..then suddenly saw a naked couple actually doing it in public..I will be like,"Are you making a porn video?" Haiz~just..do it in the house or get a room in hotel or motel..that will be better~

However, without these kind of news..I wouldn't read newspaper..these kind of thing will rise up my curiosity to read it..*hate those politics and current affairs..yuck*

Newspaper is good..do read more..you'll know more interesting stories that happen around us.. *wink wink*

2nd Time

I feel like I can get a FOOL award..again and again..I always waited for that day to come..but at last,it won't happen..For the first time,I cried because you didn't appear..For the second time, I cried because I felt myself very stupid..Stupid! Dumb! FOOL! I dunwan be a FOOL for the third time!! But I know I will.................

Lazy

Ah~damn lazy! Lazy to study..lazy to blog..so hope that I can lazy to eat..T.T

Friday night~faster faster come larh!!