29/6

This few days I kinda felt annoyed by my friend..She kept saying that I'm lazy..well,although I am..but she isn't hardworking also! I just found out that she seldom study at home..but when she said about me..she feels like she's very hardworking and bla bla bla..when I studied at Yam Yam Park just now,she said,"Why you want study? Don't study larh~" I'm like WTH..I study none of your business la~aduii! Seriously,if I can turn back time..I rather not mix with her..she's not weird like Sok Yee's friend..but when she talks,her words macam ada maksud tersirat~please..if you want to say something..just say it out bravely! Sad when talking bout her..haiz..

Another news is Jia Iaw gonna move in this Sunday..hope everything will works up well..get along well..and hope she will fit in into this room well..our room is kinda messy..haha! Since after holiday,we all just lazy to clean up our room..and we don't have time for that now..

TEST is coming soon..why I feel lazy?? :( Need to study!! But still feel lazy..I for already revised for Chemistry and Biology chapter 1~still got a lot to go!! TT

Hmm..he went to matrix in Gambang! Hope he will come KL on Saturdays and Sundays..well, not every weekend..Wanna see him so bad~almost 2 weeks already..miss him! Hope he'll do well and have fun there!

26/6

I thought everything will turn out right this morning..but ONE message just turn everything upside down..well..not everything..

I dunno why I want to put so high hope on it..maybe I'm eager to see him..more than he wanna see me..hmm.,just got a bit disappointed..from last Saturday..I thought I will see him..till this Saturday..I understand that he's been busy..I really do..It's not that I'm not satisfied or sad..It's just like you will expect that thing will happen..at last it didn't..I'm not sad..just disappointed..

Luckily, I got 2 lovely room mates..we went shopping for almost 4 hours..bought some clothes today..my feet are tired..T.T the most annoying thing that happened is the stupid bus..that's the worst bus ride ever! That fat ass woman so no manner! She just pushed everyone~ ==" I'm like "excuse me~?"

Hmm..It's fun but the same time..it's quite hmm..whatever..

Now I realised

Been thinking about a lot of things..my love life,my future and my career..

Yesterday during my Biology Tutorial class, my tutorial teacher told us a story whereby at last you need to choose your choice which will lead you to your future's aim..maybe it's true maybe it's not.. well, my result was I'm more to my love life..I think it's true..for me..but I still dunno what will happen in the future..maybe something happen and make everything change..

What will happen to my love life? Seriously, I just want to have a simple life..I don't want my husband is a millionaire or billionaire..although I love money..but what if my husband spend more time on how to make billions of money than taking care of his own family? Hmm...

Dunwan talk to much bout love life..xD

Nurse..really is the career I aim for? Well..90% yes..because that's the job which I can find job easily and the income is not bad..but I really scared I can't go through this A Level..I can't say it's hard or easy..what if I flung the exams..? I think I won't..sometimes,I will feel burden.. because my family were putting high hopes on me..I'm a human too..sometimes I just feel tired of studying or looking at those notes..actually I'm a very lazy person..obviously~I just dunno why I can get 8As in SPM..I didn't even studied properly..will it be better if I did less well in SPM? Maybe they won't put so high hopes on me? I just scared if one day I did not do well and let them disappointed..what will happen? Can't think more than that..~

Now I realised..life is damn hard..all those decision I make now will lead to my future..it's either good or bad..it's hard when I can't tell this to anyone..talk to my family? They will understand me? Will my mum will stop her nagging about..everything? Especially "Study first larh..pak to when oso can wan ma~" ==" it's 2010 now..talk to my friends? One word,"serious??" Talk to him? Nah~he's busy..don't want to annoy him..said about annoy this word..I'm kinda sad when people said I'm annoying..although I am..but I found out that..I'm not annoying in college..trying to change? I don't know..a lot of people said I need to change..seriously,if I changed..you all will treat me like before? Is that the AnGel that you guys want?If you all think that's better for me, I'll change for your sake..

o.0 Suddenly write till this topic..just gonna stop here..tired..+ sleepy..

Back to college

Holiday ended~! Seriously,this morning don't feel like going to college..went for college for that 3 hours classes..my bed~I miss my bed in KL!

But the smell has gone..the smell of yours..miss your hugs so much!! Miss you shouts~when everyone ignores you~miss when you always kacau me~miss you always sings when everyone called you stop singing...miss you so much!

Don't feel like doing my homework..test is coming soon..don't feel like studying..gonna study last minute!!!

Nothing much happened for today~miss KL life with you...

I Lost It

I don't know what to do now..I lost it..I keep finding..but I still can't find..My mind is keep thinking about it..I can't continue writing anymore..Just..please..please let me found it..I'm really sorry dear..sorry..

Last day in Hometown

Today is the last day in Kuantan..will miss all my friends~Yeeven..Chii Chung..Yaw Yih..Jeffrey..Bryan..Yit Yee..Jo Ann..and others! Thanks to Chii Chung for letting me play his mini instant camera~this 2 weeks in Kuantan..left me happy,sad and even bored memories.. Happy memories with all my friends and my dear..sad memories..can't remember~haha! And bored memories is BORED! But still enjoyed myself..

Hmm..miss him so much! Kinda regret didn't go back to KL on thursday..:( But it' ok! Still got chance to meet him..be patient AnGel! Hope he can get through it like I did..and hope he will fit in well when he go to UiTM..love wishes from me~^^

Everything will be different now..will miss him..

All the best..!

Happy Fathers' Day

Happy 4th Month Anniversary!

R.I.P.

He went to Kelantan yesterday to see his grandma who was admitted to hospital..This morning he called me and said that his grandma was better and can come out from the hospital..I felt relieved.. but just now..he called..his grandma was gone..I got a shocked..I dunno what should I say.. I faced before losing someone who is important in my life..I know how he feels..but I just can't say anything..I just listened he's crying..I know he need to calm down..when I heard him cry..my heart was losing it's emotion..I really hope I can be by his side now..wish he can face this toughly..

Dead is not in our hands..is in God's hand..God wants them to be by his side..
Don't worry..I think God will take good care of everyone who is not in our world..

This really reminds me when my dad was gone..Although I cried,but I try to put a smile on my face when the ceremony was held..Everytime I talked about my dad, I was smiling because I believe my dad wouldn't want me and my family sad..All that's left in my mind is those happy memories of me and my dad..everyone will goes through it..it depends how you face it.. gtg now..

Love,
Angel

Time is ticking

It's already Thursday..time passed so fast..still got 3 more days left in Kuantan.. I just can't wait till Saturday but I don't want time ends so fast..Tomorrow night Tak Min,Hau Hui they all will be back..Can't wait for them to come back..seriously,since I went to KL..I seldom see them..everyone is busy with their own things..so,can't to wait to hang out with them! They're the BEST! I also can't wait my dumb dumb to come back!! Hope his photo shoot and interview goes well..~

Can't believe my dumb dumb now being control by his agent..Need to congrats him!!

~CONGRATULATION MY DUMB DUMB~

but this means..he's no longer as free as before..I wonder what will happen if one day he got famous..will it be like those Korean dramas?? Hmm..I think too much..XD happy for him because he got what he want now.. ^^

~MISS YOU~

Sok Yee

Sok~did I make you angry?? I'm sorry that I kept FFK this week..dunno what happen to me..Please forgive me..I still heart u~

My Sok Sok

~Nite Nite~

^^

The back of you

Say my last goodbye,

Looking at the back of you,

The blur shadow that will never turn behind,

Last farewell between me and you.

Tears that will not come to the end,

Flowing on the cheek before drop to the ground,

The sadness will not stop,

No matter how much tears were gone.

My eyes are blur,

covered by those tears,

When will this stop?

Even my heart can't hold on anymore.

Even my eyes were swollen,

Even my eyes were red,

I only hope for,

To see the back of you.

Wish

1st wish:

Want go eat Curry mihun near TC early in the morning

2nd wish:

Want go watch The A-Team

3rd wish:

Want to have a walk around TC

4th wish:

Want to have some chit chat with my love one

5th wish:

Want go Santai to eat dinner

6th wish:

Want go sing k

7th wish:

Want to take lotss of pictures

8th wish:

Want to hold your hand through the day

9th wish:

Want to lean on your shoulder

Last wish:

Only wanna be with you the whole day

It's hard I know...That's why we call it a WISH

I seriously hate myself!

Far Away

Just now I had a great chat with my brother..talked about my future..I really hope I can earn a lot of money and never let other people look down on me..! I hope my future is in my hand..my future is my choice..! And I'll never regret of my choice!

If 10 years later..everything going well..I hope we can accomplish our dream together..^^ you are my first and also will be my last..~

seriously

MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!!

You know deep inside your heart

I LOVE YOU

Although it's just 3 months plus..I really hope that this relationship will last until we grow old..

I know you don't like my childish character..I try myself to change it..seriously..I also don't like it..but I dunno why it grew on me..I know I can control it..just dunno why I acted like that..I'm sorry dear~

If our relationship can maintain till 10 years after,I will think that..but make sure you got your own car and your own house..haha! I know you always wanted to have your own talk show..add oil!! I'll support you no matter what!! If you got any problem must tell me ok? I don't like you put it in your heart..

I'm sorry if I make you angry..I'm sorry if I make you sad..I'm sorry if I make you worried..

~will always love you~

love,

Angel

6th June

Currently in Kuantan now..

What I did yesterday~? My family and I went shopping for my little niece Man Yee..Can't believe I didn't see her for one month only..and she knows how to walk dy!! HAHA! She so cute~but we all like to 'manja' her dy..haiz~XD On that night, I went yc with my 姐妹..well..of course we talked a lot of crap..chit chat here and there..lol! Saw my lovely Mun Wei and Catherine..miss them so much~ too bad the stupid Shu Min late..she missed out a lot of thing..LOL! I think that's the end for yesterday...

Hmm..what I did today? Let me think..XD This morning woke up 9+..need to accompany my mum go eat dinner...got some bad thing happen int he morning..and I don't feel like talking about it.. After that, I hang out in my brother's room the whole afternoon..3pm dated Sok Yee go window shopping..At night watched Nightmare on Elm Street with Sok and my dear.. seriously, the movie is shocking..! Watched half way, my dear need to go back..:( left me alone with my fearing heart..thank god got Sok there..haha! Later we went to Brands Outlet..saw some cure t shirt..so decided to but couple T! XD Is it weird if girl buys for boy? Well..don't care bout it because I already bought it..haha! Now..just waiting for a day to give him this T-shirt~^^

Nice?? ^^

100th day~

30th May~

From morning till night I didn't go out from my house..no idea why..just very lazy..XD

Well..that day suppose I will have a surprise anniversary..but Nina's mum accidentally told me that he's coming to KL..so..his another surprise failed AGAIN~I'm actually quite moody that day..but when I heard that,I'm very happy..coz I didn't really think that he'll come here..so,I waited..waited..and waited..suddenly he came in with a cake..^^ we celebrated with Sok Yee and Shu Min..they both helped him to give me surprise..I'm actually surprise the CAKE..not the person..XD I really happy and appreciate that he came here..This is why I love him sooo much~!! ><

~HAPPY 100th DAY ANNIVERSARY~

♥ FAQRUL AZWAN