Final Showdown

Tomorrow is the day! The war begins! Everyone do your best! For scholars, DON'T FAIL! For non-scholars, DO YOUR BEST! ALL THE A LEVEL STUDENTS! DON'T GIVE UP!

Think about MONEY! Think about FUTURE!

Wish everyone all the best!!

~wish you're here~

BLOOD

Ah! I finally went for blood donation! Donated blood for the first time..it just a little slightly pain..I can feel my blood flowing out from my blood vessel..touched 350ml of my blood for the first time too! I can't believe my blood type is A! I always thought mine is O~wanna go donate again!

Saw your blog..I miss it too..those failed surprise you gave me..haha! All the best in your study! I know you can do it! Miss you..my special friend..Don't Give Up! =)

22th

请告诉她我不爱她

别告诉她我还想他

..ILY..IMY..

Suppose to be 8th

~20th~

Kinda miss this day..Do you remember?

Tired of everything I did now..Do you know?

Force myself not to think about you..

Why can't?

Now I know..

It's better to be silent..

Don't even care to talk..

IMY

I Stay In Love

Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gonna act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But I stay in love with you

We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

Fucking tired!

Wake up..go to college..hears lectures..concentrate concentrate! Finish lectures..Study..Study! Go home..Play for a while..feeling guilty..STUDY! 12am..time to sleep..and my schedule is just keep repeating and repeating..Starting to get tired of all this..really need someone can hugs me now..really need some warmth..and comfort..hmm..think too much think too much!! WONG AN GEL!! STUDY!!!!!!! FORCING FORCING FORCING MYSELF TO STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~super tired~

~so hope time can stop for me right now~

Fucking idiot

Realised how stupid I am..My mind is full of so many questions that I wouldn't able to ask you.. "LOVE" seriously..are you really in love with me before? I heard too many things..that I'm kinda realised that..I'm just a toy..when you need it,you'll find it..but when you don't need it..you don't fucking care about it..After broke up with me..I don't think that you'll be very very sad like I do.. The reason that broke up with me? oOo! Just tell me that you found someone like your ex..that you always love until you die..Just tell me that..I'm just a toy used to satisfy your time..I always believed in you..no matter what others said..I still thinks that "You're not that kind of people.You won't treat me like that." How idiot I am? Definitely totally an idiot..Told me you love me..you miss me..it's that a lie too? I don't know I still can believe in you or not..You don't even love me..but I still believes and waits for your return..I'm totally a FUCKING IDIOT!

It's TIME

ARGH! Just went to scholarship talk..make me feels so damn guilty! Thank god the result of stupid Malaysian Studies didn't include in year end..I seriously can't lose my scholarship..! Need to study till mad!! Can't fail!! Cannot let my mum disappointed on me anymore!!

WORK HARD ANGEL!!

DON'T THINK ABOUT UNWANTED THING ALREADY!

加油!!!

Blankly

I stared blankly at you, already that far away

It seemed like you would turn back again to look
I thought if I cried now, it might really become farewell
So I pretended to be calm and let you go

I thought about asking you not to go
But I couldn't say anything because of your cold expression
And just watched

I stared blankly at you, already that far away
It seemed like you would turn back again to look
I hated myself for just crying like that
Turn back the time
I want to go back to when I didn't know you

I can now see you far away
I couldn't move one step
Don't leave me behind
Come back to me
Please turn around once

We loved, you wanted me like crazy
I can't believe you're turning your back on me now
It was nice, we were happy to the point of tears
Our beautiful memories
At some point flow down my cheeks
It seems like I'm crying, tears are flowing
It seems like I have to let you go now

YOU!

THANKS FOR RUIN MY LIFE

AND

FUCK YOUR LIFE!

o0o

别为我伤心了

不是每一个人能找到真爱..

不是每一个人都会被人疼爱..

不是每一个人能永远的在一起..

我不能保成..

我不能给你承诺..

我不能永远的保护你..

如果有一天..

我不在你的身边..

我不再会守护你..

你一定要忘记我..

我们的回忆..

不要让那回忆躲在心理..

如果你还痛苦..

我会把那些伤心的记忆带走..

因为我不想看到你悲伤的样子..

这会让我更痛苦..

如果爱太痛了..

那就别爱了..

放弃也许会更快乐..

这样你就不会再流眼泪了..

但是我还会永远的爱着你..

把回忆留在心理..

ps : I'm not chinese educated..

so will have a lot of error..

trying to improve now......

Thank you..

我们的回忆

有时候,我不明白..一开始,是你说你不要和我在一起..当我要放弃你的时候,你却问我.."你要做我的女朋友吗?"我当时却还有一点喜欢你..我们就这样开始了..轰轰烈烈的爱情..冷冷淡淡的爱情..我过了很多的难关..家人反对我却不理..你对我说过.."慢慢来吧..我们一定没事的..'' 我相信你..因为我开始爱上你了..我们就这样过了五个月..在这里的日子..我们有很多很开心和不开心的回忆..

还记得那一天你和我在ECM说分手吗?你说你对我没感觉了..我的眼泪不直觉的掉下来了..你抓着我的手不放..我不董要这么做..我哭了..那天晚上,我喝多了..在车里面大声地哭..过了一天..你说你放不下..我就这样原谅你了..我不想失去你..过了那一天,我们很少骂架..但过了一段日子..你又慢慢对我冷淡了..我知道你就要和我说分手..但我安慰自己..我应该是想太多了..过几天了..你却没联络我..在FB看到你写的东西..

当我打给你的时候..我问你.."你有话要对我说吗?" 你说了很多但全都不是你要对我说的..到最后..你说了..''我们分手吧.." 我没哭..但当你挂了电话时..我哭了..我很难过..哭了一整天..方不掉..忘不掉..很想念你..很想对你说..我爱你..

现在..我不哭了..我不想为你哭了..我希望我们还可以做回好朋友..不要不理我..不要躲开我..我只是想我们可以像以前那样..

希望你的生活顺顺利利..祝你找到你真珍爱的女孩..

谢谢你给我的回忆

我的初恋

3rd October

It's Sunday and I have nowhere to go..such a pathetic day..Woke up at almost 12pm..first thing to do,turned on my netbook..FACEBOOK! As usual, the first thing I did is check someone's profile..It made me wondering..Why need to be like this? Ignore me and live happily..Friends? Is this what you called FRIENDS? But now I don't have the time to bother about you anymore..I just wanna go on with my life now..It's over now~Don't worry..I won't turn back for you anymore..

I kinda enjoy my life these few days..Laugh and laugh and laugh! Thanks to my classmates..especially Ka Seng,Gordon,Ying Hao,Peggy,Priya and Sai Kit..feel very glad to have all of you by my side..and obviously..my love,Sok yee~and Kei..without you all I'll be living with the deads..

Need to start studying for today..NEVER LOSE MY SCHOLARSHIP!

I'll prove to you!

F

FUCK OFF!